What you've missed all these years :(

Dear Dad,


It's been 4 1/2 years since you left me.  I begged you to stay, for me, for Jess....for family, but you couldn't. Sometimes I think you wouldn't; that I wasn't good enough to make you stay.  Crazy, I know.... but grief does so many weird things.  I was mad at you for a long time....I'm sorry for that, by the way :)


I had my daughter.  He name is Rylee Hunter.  OMG Dad, you'd so love her!  She's so smart and beautiful and funny!  She amazes me.  I can't believe what a lucky woman I am to get such a fabulous child!  But maybe....like you always say...it's the DNA :)


I've returned to school again.  I graduate in May.  I think you'd be pretty proud of me!  I'm pretty proud of myself.  I have finally found a way to make money with my art and have fun while doing it!  I've never been happier!  And the fact that I keep a 3.85 GPA with straight A's definitely makes it better.


Cole and I are still together :)  I know you never got to meet him, but I think you'd be impressed.  I make some pretty good decisions when it comes to men!  He's handsome and smart and haas goals and dreams!  And he is the greatest father any little girl could ask for!! Although it's a close one between you and him :)


Damn Pops....I miss the hell out of you!  Nothing is the same.  There is an empty place in my life that will never be filled.  I never thought this would happen.  I need you.  I can see you rolling your eyes at me right now...and laughing at me.  I know I'm an adult now.... but the things you shared with me and taught me are irreplaceable memories. I wish we were still making them.


I suppose that's enough for now.  I'm starting to get misty.... and I don't feel like screwing up my make-up!  Love you, Pops!


Love,
Daughter