Dear Dad,
You know what!! I'm so sick and tired of this bullshit!! I'm so sick a fucking tired of not standing up for myself! Why is it that I can do it everywhere but in my own relationships!? Huh!? What the fuck is wrong with me!! WHAT!!???? I'm tired of being used and abused.... I'm tired of being called names and forced to do all the work!! And you know what pisses me off the most!! Momma's boy thinks he's got it good! Well guess what.... as soon as my money get owed... you'll be off to momma's for good!! I'm fucking DONE!!!!!!
Monday, January 16, 2012
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
The End!
Dear Dad,
So I've made it through another hurdle! I have officially finished my last Fall semester of college. I am on my way to the finish line; I can see it right around the corner! I can't even begin to describe the happiness, the joy... the relief it is to finally be here! I have worked so hard to make it this far. A few more months and I will be graduated with my second degree and two internships under my belt! I hope it's all worth it... I hope all this hard work pays off!
I hope I've made you proud, Dad. I hope you really are looking down on me from heaven smiling. All I have ever wanted is to make you proud. For the first time I can honestly say I've made myself proud. These last few years have been so hard and so draining, but I overcame it all.... I, me.... I HAVE MADE IT!
I love you, Pops... more than you will ever know! I miss you so much everyday!
Love,
Daughter
So I've made it through another hurdle! I have officially finished my last Fall semester of college. I am on my way to the finish line; I can see it right around the corner! I can't even begin to describe the happiness, the joy... the relief it is to finally be here! I have worked so hard to make it this far. A few more months and I will be graduated with my second degree and two internships under my belt! I hope it's all worth it... I hope all this hard work pays off!
I hope I've made you proud, Dad. I hope you really are looking down on me from heaven smiling. All I have ever wanted is to make you proud. For the first time I can honestly say I've made myself proud. These last few years have been so hard and so draining, but I overcame it all.... I, me.... I HAVE MADE IT!
I love you, Pops... more than you will ever know! I miss you so much everyday!
Love,
Daughter
Tuesday, December 13, 2011
It's almost over!
Dear Dad,
Today is my last day at my internship. I have been here since May. It's such a long time to be at such a temporary place. It's been a part of my everyday life for almost a year. I'm sad to say goodbye. But I am excited for the future. It's been an amazing ride!
Next semester is going to be a tough one. I have 5 classes and an internship. That doesn't include work and Rylee and being a wife. I honestly hope it goes well. I need to have something go smoothly in my life! I did get an amazing internship though! I'm really excited about it! I will be working for the local children's museum and I have been blessed with the task of re-designing all of their print materials! They want new photos, new layout, new everything! I am so thrilled! This internship could potentially cement me in the industry!
You always told me I should take my art and use it for a job. I pish poshed all of that, thinking there was no way I wanted to take something I loved and make it a job! But I have found the best of both worlds! I hope that you are looking down on me with a smile....because Pops... I did it!
Love,
Daughter
Today is my last day at my internship. I have been here since May. It's such a long time to be at such a temporary place. It's been a part of my everyday life for almost a year. I'm sad to say goodbye. But I am excited for the future. It's been an amazing ride!
Next semester is going to be a tough one. I have 5 classes and an internship. That doesn't include work and Rylee and being a wife. I honestly hope it goes well. I need to have something go smoothly in my life! I did get an amazing internship though! I'm really excited about it! I will be working for the local children's museum and I have been blessed with the task of re-designing all of their print materials! They want new photos, new layout, new everything! I am so thrilled! This internship could potentially cement me in the industry!
You always told me I should take my art and use it for a job. I pish poshed all of that, thinking there was no way I wanted to take something I loved and make it a job! But I have found the best of both worlds! I hope that you are looking down on me with a smile....because Pops... I did it!
Love,
Daughter
Monday, December 12, 2011
Fa Rah Rah Rah Rah
Dear Dad,
So it's that time of year again... Christmas. Oh how I adore this season! Only this year I can't seem to get out of this funk.. it's like I'm Scrooge this year. I'm just not feeling it. Maybe it's the stress of all the work I have going on right now. Luckily it's almost time for a much needed break!!
This year Rylee is finally old enough to get the whole hype of Christmas. It's really cute. It's almost like we get to re-live the magic of Christmas again. Through her Santa is real... it's fun again! We've already been in a parade, decorated and made some Christmas cookies. We still have to go get our tree, but I'm thinking there's plenty of time for all of that.
I've started to shop, but I just don't know what to buy. We've decided to focus more on Rylee this year than anyone else. I really want her to have magical holidays.... like the ones I had as a kid. I'd really like to keep with the theme of educational toys this year. She's finally starting to read and write and I want her to have anything and everything that will help her along the way!
I miss you, Pops....everyday!
Love,
Daughter
So it's that time of year again... Christmas. Oh how I adore this season! Only this year I can't seem to get out of this funk.. it's like I'm Scrooge this year. I'm just not feeling it. Maybe it's the stress of all the work I have going on right now. Luckily it's almost time for a much needed break!!
This year Rylee is finally old enough to get the whole hype of Christmas. It's really cute. It's almost like we get to re-live the magic of Christmas again. Through her Santa is real... it's fun again! We've already been in a parade, decorated and made some Christmas cookies. We still have to go get our tree, but I'm thinking there's plenty of time for all of that.
I've started to shop, but I just don't know what to buy. We've decided to focus more on Rylee this year than anyone else. I really want her to have magical holidays.... like the ones I had as a kid. I'd really like to keep with the theme of educational toys this year. She's finally starting to read and write and I want her to have anything and everything that will help her along the way!
I miss you, Pops....everyday!
Love,
Daughter
Monday, December 5, 2011
GGGRRRRRRRRR....
Dear Dad,
Today is an annoying day. I wish I still had you there to call. I could really use your comedic humor to make me laugh or a few words of wisdom that you always seem to magically know to say. Today is a day that I truly miss you. A day when the gigantic weight your loss rears it's ugly head.
Somedays I have good days. Somedays I have bad. Today is a bad day.
Love,
Daughter
Today is an annoying day. I wish I still had you there to call. I could really use your comedic humor to make me laugh or a few words of wisdom that you always seem to magically know to say. Today is a day that I truly miss you. A day when the gigantic weight your loss rears it's ugly head.
Somedays I have good days. Somedays I have bad. Today is a bad day.
Love,
Daughter
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
The Times Pass too Fast
Dear Dad,
I got an e-mail yesterday about obtaining my current contact information for the dreaded upcoming 10 year high school reunion. Holy mother of christ...I'm old! I don't want to be this old yet. I'm not ready!
So on top of the 10 year reunion, I got information about enrolling Rylee into kindergarden. I'm so old now I have a kid that's about to be in kindergarden! She's not a baby anymore. Oh the time... where does it go!
My birthday is steady approaching as well. I used to love my birthday so much. I always wondered why you guys hated it so much. Now it makes sense. After 25 or so you start to see 30 and then you can't stop thinking that someday you're going to be 40 then 50... ugh! I don't want to! It's just not fair. Why can't time stand still. I want to hold onto it so tight and never let go.
Love,
Daughter
I got an e-mail yesterday about obtaining my current contact information for the dreaded upcoming 10 year high school reunion. Holy mother of christ...I'm old! I don't want to be this old yet. I'm not ready!
So on top of the 10 year reunion, I got information about enrolling Rylee into kindergarden. I'm so old now I have a kid that's about to be in kindergarden! She's not a baby anymore. Oh the time... where does it go!
My birthday is steady approaching as well. I used to love my birthday so much. I always wondered why you guys hated it so much. Now it makes sense. After 25 or so you start to see 30 and then you can't stop thinking that someday you're going to be 40 then 50... ugh! I don't want to! It's just not fair. Why can't time stand still. I want to hold onto it so tight and never let go.
Love,
Daughter
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Old Times
Dear Dad,
So Jess and I have been talking about the summers we used to spend at your house. We loved going to Wegman's and picking out movies. Then we'd come home and we'd all help Kathy prepare a big meal! After dinner we'd sit around and watch movies and dance to your records spinning around and aorund on the old record player. Those are such sweet memories. Oh and that friggin' tiger blanket. You have to remember that old thing! Gawd, how I miss that tiger blanket. Jess says she thinks its at G-mas. I hope so, because that beast is going to be mine :)
We've decided to keep the fun going for Rylee. Jess is going to be coming up for Thanksgiving and before she leaves we're going to have a big all out sleep over with Auntie Jess. I think it's going to be a lot of fun. No doubt this tradition is held so highly in our heads; I hope Rylee remembers it someday just the same.
Thank you for your amazing memories Dad. You really are simply irreplaceable.
Love,
Daughter
So Jess and I have been talking about the summers we used to spend at your house. We loved going to Wegman's and picking out movies. Then we'd come home and we'd all help Kathy prepare a big meal! After dinner we'd sit around and watch movies and dance to your records spinning around and aorund on the old record player. Those are such sweet memories. Oh and that friggin' tiger blanket. You have to remember that old thing! Gawd, how I miss that tiger blanket. Jess says she thinks its at G-mas. I hope so, because that beast is going to be mine :)
We've decided to keep the fun going for Rylee. Jess is going to be coming up for Thanksgiving and before she leaves we're going to have a big all out sleep over with Auntie Jess. I think it's going to be a lot of fun. No doubt this tradition is held so highly in our heads; I hope Rylee remembers it someday just the same.
Thank you for your amazing memories Dad. You really are simply irreplaceable.
Love,
Daughter
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